4 years later

Revisited and read all my old posts at this hour (ha. I remembered I actually have a blog). Still trying to convince myself that I'm now in my last semester of my undergraduate life. Kinda feel nostalgic, so I decided to post my thoughts after visiting my old self. The following are just ramblings, updates on what happened over the last 4 years.

I met Yintak in my freshmen camp on 24 July 2012. He was probably one of the quietest people I've ever met, so I didn't bond with him as much as I did with my other teammates. But somehow we began spending time together after the camp, all started when we just wanted to say hi one of our camp-mate at her workplace. Since then, he became one of the most important person in my life. Three and a half years have passed, and we're still glad it happened. Things are not perfect, but what matters is that we trust each other, and we're always willing to work on them to improve ourselves.

In 10 days, Tak is leaving for Seattle for six months. I plan to take this time to find myself again. After reading my old posts, I was reminded of what I was like, four or six years ago - fearless, cheerful, highly optimistic (hence, the name of this blog when it was first created). It was not Tak's fault that certain things change (to various extents) - these four years gave me a lot of life experiences, and changed my personality a little. I became slightly less direct, less optimistic, less ambitious. At the same time, I believe that I have been warmer, easy-going, and more appreciative. Well, as said, I plan to reflect on this, to keep the good stuff, and work on the not-so-good ones.

My strongest pillar of support, Yeye, who is also the most important person to me, passed away on 5 October 2014. When Yeye was first diagnosed of the illness, my family hid the news from me. I guess I was sharp and suspicious enough to dig it out on my own. I was utterly broken. It was as if my life support was taken away from me - that's how much he was, and still is, important to me. I never really speak to my friends about this. I could only open myself up to Yintak, and I was thankful that he was there for me. It was probably my toughest moment in my life, and I didn't want to be reminded of it.

That's it for now. I got tired of composing. I guess I was never meant to revive this blog anyway (cos I'm too lazy to keep it alive).

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Listen Closely

Follow the heart? 


As it is, it may have been too late...


Scary enough...how it can make one feel so weak and miserable...


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POKEMON MODE: ON

I dedicate this post to the creator of POKEMON. *sparkles*
It has been part of my childhood *grins* and actually I'm still watching Pokemon up to date  =3


Images are from Pokehumor!

cooking time

great analogy, i must say

ROFLLL exactly

I cried in this episode :'(

kewtness overload!

they should have "Pikachu's Diet Plan"

like a sir B)

Hilariously disturbing LOL

No, no we didn't forget you, Meowth

classic!!

Hipster Ho-Oh!

I LOLLL-ed so hard at this!
(geez I can name all of them ._. )

Pokemon Kantou (the first generation) is still the best. Fyi, they're screening Pokemon Black and White now and team Rocket is read badass in there ._. And they got "blasted off" less in the new series :p
I miss Misty and BROCK! Just hope they won't ever change the main character, Ash, and his number one Pikachu!




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yeah, you.

Just...can't stop looking at the zillions of pics that my friends and I took in Sg.

I miss you guys/girls/gays...a lot :')

Sleep now, dear me.

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Root of Happiness

There...there...it's in your thoughts, your mind, your actions;
It's in YOU.

For example,

Happiness is...finding yourself smiling at (even) this.

Yes, several external forces may get you derailed - exams, work, projects, failures, boredom, love or death.
In the end, these matter just this much; what will bring you back on track is yourself.
Hopefully, plus the help of your caring family members and friends :)

Similarly, the root of sadness is in you. Why try so hard to be sad?
Do something about it. Ask for help if needed :)
Not prepared for upcoming exams? Stop worrying. Study as much as you can bear.

Stressed? Take a break; Or a getaway, if needed.

Failures? Get over it. Work harder next time.

Missed full score by one or two marks? Well, don't expect too much. Sometimes, one needs to learn to be contented.

Sick of your current job? Quit if you've been telling yourself so, yet haven't done so.
Why torture yourself doing pointless things? Treat work as a lifestyle, not an obligation.

Missing your loved ones? Make yourself busy. Do (or eat) things that you love. Give him/her a call (if he/ she is alive LOL). Learn that 'change is the only constant'. Take advantage of the change. Learn to stand up stronger.

Bored? Easy; find something fun to do. Period.

Live in the present; worry less.
Go with the flow.
Look at the bright side of basically everything.
Start the day by expecting good things to happen; it's a self-fulfilling prophesy.
In a nutshell, when you're feeling down, you DO something about it.
You don't sit around and wait for happiness to find you.
You get up and 'GRAB' your own HAPPINESS :)

No one wants to be sad. However, one can unconsciously pollute one's thoughts with negativity; hence, such.
Do realise that everyone around you will love your more cheerful and jubilant self :)
Wear a smile! It's infectious, and one size fits all! *wink*

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another phase

Getting ready for university involves applications, essay-writing, recommendations, decision-making; and definitely, excitement. I've received many opinions from seniors, relatives, friends and eventually, I am the one choosing the path that I wish to travel.

Gotta work hard for these - getting a course that I want, *fast-forward* having a job that I love, enjoying life, fulfilling a promise, and blahs...
I guess this I'm not even halfway there, but I'm not giving up.
I'm preparing myself for what have yet to come.
*determined2* :)

Meanwhile, I'm currently working at my ex-teacher's tuition centre, teaching secondary and primary school students. Now I can empathise with my former teachers when I'm trying hardddd to make the students work! (and not chit-chat, or copy somebody else's work, or play with their phones) Geez... Then I realise incentives work xp Examples: 'SHINEE' poster, breaks, getting 'early release' once they finished doing all the questions, some gifts from Singapore... and even English 'lessons'! (gosh)
And these kids are indeeeeddd naughty (not all, but most are) LOL.

It's a liiil tiring, but

I love giving them eureka moments,
I want to help them (understand the subjects and the importance of learning);
lastly, THEY ARE SO CUTE AND FUNNAYEEE!

There was one time when a student thought that I was leaving for SG for 4 years while in fact, I was just leaving for less than a week to get my results. He told his classmates and the entire gang came over specially to say farewells, "Have a safe flight, Sisterrrr!"
They're so cute right!?! OK, pardon my enthusiasm xD That's sweet of them.
And my ex-teacher was jealous of me who has just taught them for less than 2 months *ROFLLL*
So when I landed on Medan (from SG), I headed straight for work and got them some chocs :)
Plus some gifts which I promised a few students who managed to solve my self-crafted, challenging Maths questions. (my...they were groaningggg as they tried solving them x)

These happy, enjoyable things kept me going. As I look forward to the start of my university life, let me enjoy some nice home-made meals, family time, and (ironically) work-life! xD

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Look back

The sunset is so pretty i just want to post this :))

Now that I have too much time, I'll blog.
Many fun things/events happened days after A Levels ended (OHHH GLORIOUS DAYSS!)
Um, ignore that.heh.

Achievement: Played at Siloso Beach with hostelmates, FINALLY. (after postponing it since everyone's busy partying after June Common Test and Prelims)
Yay to beaches and great frands!(Y)

genius Kim suggested this ;p

MUEHEHHEHE!

Had an awesome day at Sentosa!:)) Ak has a cool new camera and took most of the best shots!
Crazy Kim n Ak did somersaults - wushu n parkour style respectively - while the rest of us just "watched and 'ate popcorn' " XD
Crap I'll miss the hindi/beach/basketball moments and the craziness! you guys!:))

*transition*
x Day(s) after...

Outings with Mankee, Pat, Cepe, Jen, Roommie Nono, and meeting Asri, RC, Bane, Hannah whom I haven't really chatted with in quite some time.
So we went to Nando's at Bugis and had some Peri-Peri chilli! (and main course, obviously)

How I miss all of them, and the SC-IJ times...

RIGHT AFTER (like, after THE DINNER) we rushed to Lavender by taxi!
Managed to exchange S$ for some ringgits and hopped on to our bus on time. #successkid.jpg :D
Destination: PANGKOR ISLAND
Companies: Jen n' Pat <3 So we camwhored like there's no tomorrow, even on the bus (Y)

And we slept in the bus...like a boss.

And eventually we - Pat & I - 'slept'. Jen slept quite early tho.

Then we sailed our way to Pangkor!

Headed out to Coral Beach right after we reached Nipah Bay Villa ;D
Superrr good lunch, by the beach xD

Life RAWKS yeah!

Beach time! Banana boat, sandcastles,...and we found this:

Day 1 was funnnn! Pangkor has lotsa beaches - Coral Beach, Monkey Beach, Nipah Beach, and blahs.
Basically we went to beaches in all 3 days :D playing and collecting seashells

Pat having soya bean curd heehee

Boat trip and snorkelling!

Worst thing: I accidentally swallowed salt water when I tried to dive in a bit to see cute lil fishie and it tasted *YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKYYYYYYY* TT__________TT

Good thing I was saved by a fabulous seafood dinner. Very affordable too!
Ate lotsa ABC (Ais Batu Campur), which is basically the Malaysian version of ice kachang plus chocolate and stuff and one that is waaaayy nicer than just ice ka-chang.

then...that night...by the beach...*coughs* :)

CRAP now i miss u guys alr!

PANGKOR WE LOVE YA!!

Of course, PIJJA has never left our hearts :)
Just in case, PIJJA = Pat-Ivana-Jenny-Jesslyn-Ankee ^^
Presenting...the PIJJA (sand) castle!

ok don't give me that face.heheh~
I wished ankee and jes could've come along...(kept thinking 'if only they could come arghh#$@$' at Pangkor)

my very first getaway with buddies♥

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